During my recent close call with a relationship, I was asked something I hadn’t thought about in a while.
Did I want more kids?
“Luke” had said he would have to have a couple more (he already had two) and if he would have asked me that question a few years ago, my answer would have been, “more like three more!”
My Mom grew up in a very large family…16 kids total…and I always loved having so many aunts, uncles, and cousins. I loved to hear stories from my Mom about her brothers and sisters and all the fun they had (or trouble they got into.) I guess that’s what put it in my mind that I’d like to have more than just an only child. I never wanted my child to be lonely and figured that two could keep each other company. Add a few more into that and it would be even better.
But now I’ve realized that my answer may have changed.
I don’t feel empty without another child. The fact that May is an only child has allowed us to bond and be closer to each other than I feel like I’d be able to be if I was responsible for taking care of two.
And I don’t feel like May is lonely without a sibling. She’s very close to my nephews and enjoys hanging out with them every chance she gets. And now that my niece has two of her own who are only a couple years younger, I’m sure that May will have a two female partners-in-crime as soon as they get old enough to play together.
I’m know that it’s a possibility that I may find somebody one day who already has kids and fall in love…and I’m okay with that. But I can’t see myself wanting to start all over and have more kids in the future.
But, really, who knows what the future will bring?
I’d love to hear from any Moms reading this about what point you decided you were done having kids. And if you are still planning on more, how many would be perfect in your world?
Thanks for reading!